Hey Killa
I remember you. I liked playing with you and was very sad when you were banned. I knew you were smarter than to think you could do something like that.
Sounds like you have a big decision.....do you change a little, or do you change a lot. If you choose to only change a little, it will be very easy to slide back to where you have been.
You need to find someone who has their head on straight, someone who can be your mentor. Make yourself accountable to that person so you have someone who will help you and who you can go to for help.
We will continue to pray for you and your family.
Lisa